rushing

I am so fucked for tomorrow. In a sense this is also my fault for not booking appointments earlier and just assuming things will get done on the same day.
I'm already having troubles scheduling my times... I don't know how long I'll last.

Also - the list of the True Friends is emerging. I keep on thinking about the best of people when I should've learned not to expect anything from others because in the end, these people will disappoint you.

I really need the confidence to pull this off.

Melancholic/ I Must Be Dreaming

I've been feeling helpless these past few days.
Everything seems to be going well, but I fear that I may not be physically able to accomplish my goals.
Afterwhich... where will these short term goals lead me?
I am still waiting for my calling.
Maybe that's my mistake - because I've been waiting.
I fear failure. I feel that I won't fail. Am I making excuses for myself?
Growth choices... growth choices...
All the while, procrastinating.......
So tired. I just want to get this life over with.